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Its interesting how in a conversation he could completely rip my life apart, but then in the next instant help me realize how through my past experiences they piece together to form this amazing masterpiece of my "past life". Its amazing how I could feel so much not in control but at the same time also in control in a conversation. Just interacting with this person involves a roller coaster of experiences {staying true to the title of my blog here...:P}.
I've read a ton of inspirational quotes to date. But the one that stands out is the monologue from the movie "Coach Carter" about being afraid of the light as opposed to the darkness. It forms one of my past blogposts'. So this friend shared his with me and after I read it, it seemed quite similar to the one I associated with.
Its from the series "Everwood" and this is how it goes:-
The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw, my inability to change. I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse. So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again.
In conclusion, I now truly believe "..." --> please refer to my next blogpost titled "A Reason, a Season or a Lifetime"
